These, at least, are the words that I'll be repeating to myself for the next 36 hours or so as I bolster my spirits, nerve, energy, and whatever else I need for my first official 2012 'race'. I use the term race tentatively because I am unsure about how Saturday morning will unfold for me (or us, since Michael is running a 5K). Not only am I participating in my first ever duathlon while feeling untrained and unsure about the experience, but the weather in Southern CA has not cooperated with my plans at all! After weeks of consistently great weather, the gods have conspired against us. A winter storm system is supposed to hit the area tonight and hang around tomorrow. Perfect, just perfect. I really need to run, bike, run on slick roads. Plus, it's going to be freakin' cold (for Southern CA) at 8:00 am in Camp Pendleton so I'm in a bit of a quandary about what to wear since my usual 'multi-sport outfit' of a skimpy little top and bottom won't work!
*Just a side note - we really, really need the rain, so I'm indulging myself by complaining about rain here.
Let's thrown in the fact that I seriously think that last weekend's activities did a number on my body. I've said it before and I'll say it again, I'm so not a badass! For whatever reason, my energy and motivation have dipped this week. Perhaps the two pretty hard weeks on have left me in need of more than one rest day? Add to that, my knee felt pretty creaky today when I went out on a quick bike/run jaunt. I'm not sure what's going on, but everything is leaving me with many doubts about Saturday's adventure and, more importantly, about Wildflower in May (less than four weeks away at this point!).
To be overly-dramatic, things seem pretty bleak, and I am definitely focusing on the negative here, but there are some positives. First of all, I signed up for the same duathlon last year, the Camp Pendleton Devil Dog Duathlon, and ended up not racing, not participating, not doing anything at all because of a foot injury and knee issue. So, actually showing up on Saturday morning will be an improvement over last year's total no-show. Also, I decided today, while pushing myself along on the bike (hello, Sunshine! jeez I felt slow today!), that this is not a full-on race but good practice for Wildflower. This little attitude adjustment has helped me tremendously, and I've decided that I'll be more than happy with a solid run performance and hopefully will enjoy a good ride on the bike.
The other bonus to the experience is that we plan to drive south tomorrow and spend a pleasant evening with friends whom we rarely see. So, even if the race presents the multitude of problems that I've imagined (I get hypothermia! I crash! We're swept away by a mud slide!), if I can finish it and if I have a good time tomorrow night, sharing laughs and conversation with friends, and make something of the duathlon, then I'll count the weekend as a successful one.